I don't go to church though i used to go to sunday school when i was little. Been to the church with my auntie a few times then too.
After learning about science i figured no way did god single handlely create the world and everything on it. I felt for years he helped it on its way though.
Now i'm totally for the evolution theory. But i still see certain aspects my life as a test by someone of a higher being.
So anyway tonight i killed a rabbit suffering from myxomatosis (the brain rotting disease). I immediatly said before doing it without thinking "god forgive me". Its not the first time i've killed a rabbit suffering from the disease its about 2 a year i come across. I feel guilty for killing a living creature but my heart won't let me leave it there suffering.
I like to believe we all get to go to a better place after death. I think its healthy for the mind. I'm rambling i know, anyone mildly religious have any idea what i am meant to be thinking? My reasoning side is arguing with my belief side and my head is just spinning. Its probably because its early and i need to sleep. Will probably spam this in the morning.